Monday, June 28, 2010
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Love
.....i feel like writing about love, so i shall.
Love, is a hard think to figure out, and i wont be able to talk about it all, but I'll start with love between two people. Sometimes it is hard to find someone to love you the same way you love them, and it's a gurney we all have to go through. I think the hardest part for me would be, people who like me. Some people generally believe there in love with the person there dating. But this may not always be the case.I will give you a hint, if this person you believe you love is your first long term relationship then chances are you do not love them. This would be called lust, and sometimes you don't love the person, but love the idea of being with them. Yes, it is hard to distinguish between the two at times, but once your in love you will know. Once you care about this person so much that you would do anything it takes to make them happy, including letting them be with somebody else no matter how much it hurts you, and once you know you want to spend the rest of your life with this person no matter what they look like, or if they become sick, this is when you love someone.
In saying this i would also like to add that many people use the word love to lightly. People use the word without thinking about its meaning before using it. I am not one of those people. i cannot say the word love unless i am completely sure i love the person. Now when i say this I'm not counting the times i may have said it while being drunk. When I'm drunk i love everybody so that doesn't count. But if you are my friend or family member and, i say i love you, i do mean it. Just in a different way. To my friends i do love, and care about enough that i wouldn't want anything to happen to them. Thus, i love them as friend.
Love, is a hard think to figure out, and i wont be able to talk about it all, but I'll start with love between two people. Sometimes it is hard to find someone to love you the same way you love them, and it's a gurney we all have to go through. I think the hardest part for me would be, people who like me. Some people generally believe there in love with the person there dating. But this may not always be the case.I will give you a hint, if this person you believe you love is your first long term relationship then chances are you do not love them. This would be called lust, and sometimes you don't love the person, but love the idea of being with them. Yes, it is hard to distinguish between the two at times, but once your in love you will know. Once you care about this person so much that you would do anything it takes to make them happy, including letting them be with somebody else no matter how much it hurts you, and once you know you want to spend the rest of your life with this person no matter what they look like, or if they become sick, this is when you love someone.
In saying this i would also like to add that many people use the word love to lightly. People use the word without thinking about its meaning before using it. I am not one of those people. i cannot say the word love unless i am completely sure i love the person. Now when i say this I'm not counting the times i may have said it while being drunk. When I'm drunk i love everybody so that doesn't count. But if you are my friend or family member and, i say i love you, i do mean it. Just in a different way. To my friends i do love, and care about enough that i wouldn't want anything to happen to them. Thus, i love them as friend.
Now that school is over i have some free time.
The problem is, throughout the year i though, and started projects which i planed on finishing this summer. Now since summer is here i dont know where to start. I dont know if ill even have time to finish it all, but i will try. and i hope a finish everything :)
The problem is, throughout the year i though, and started projects which i planed on finishing this summer. Now since summer is here i dont know where to start. I dont know if ill even have time to finish it all, but i will try. and i hope a finish everything :)
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
As everyone knows, the other day was fathers day. I was informed by my mother that my step dad (Ken) did not receive a gift from me. She wondered if i had bought him one, my brother did.
I have been living in the same house with this man for about four years now. And yes, the other years i managed to give him a present. But this year i thought about what fathers day really means to me, and decided not to give Ken a present. Fathers day is a day to thank your father for all that hes done for you. Fathers day is also a day for those who lost there father to remember all there wonderful memories of there father. Ken is not my father. Sure his title "step father" has the word father within it, but to me he is not related, and does not act like a father. Yes of coarse if i felt he did lots for me and acted like a father figure in my life then he would have received a present. I do not feel this way about ken. He is more of a dictator than a father, and this is why i do not care for him. So i will never tell my family why Ken will not receive a present for me this year, or any other year, but he still will not be given a present.
I have been living in the same house with this man for about four years now. And yes, the other years i managed to give him a present. But this year i thought about what fathers day really means to me, and decided not to give Ken a present. Fathers day is a day to thank your father for all that hes done for you. Fathers day is also a day for those who lost there father to remember all there wonderful memories of there father. Ken is not my father. Sure his title "step father" has the word father within it, but to me he is not related, and does not act like a father. Yes of coarse if i felt he did lots for me and acted like a father figure in my life then he would have received a present. I do not feel this way about ken. He is more of a dictator than a father, and this is why i do not care for him. So i will never tell my family why Ken will not receive a present for me this year, or any other year, but he still will not be given a present.
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Today is fathers day.
Every fathers day i remember my father, and how he was never there for me.
i remember all the times he promised he would be there for me and never was. i remember my birthdays that he missed and for got to call.
But i also remember the times we did spend together. Making snow men, sleep overs at his house, him reading to us. times i wish i could have shared with him but could not.
Today is the day i think about all the importent events in my life which my father will miss. Graduation, getting married, my first childs birth, and so on. I guess you could say out of all the different things my family celabrates, fathers day is the one which hurts me the most. all because my father chose not to be appart of my life.
So, since i cannot say this to my fathers face, i will say it here. Happy fathers day dad, i love you anyway.
Every fathers day i remember my father, and how he was never there for me.
i remember all the times he promised he would be there for me and never was. i remember my birthdays that he missed and for got to call.
But i also remember the times we did spend together. Making snow men, sleep overs at his house, him reading to us. times i wish i could have shared with him but could not.
Today is the day i think about all the importent events in my life which my father will miss. Graduation, getting married, my first childs birth, and so on. I guess you could say out of all the different things my family celabrates, fathers day is the one which hurts me the most. all because my father chose not to be appart of my life.
So, since i cannot say this to my fathers face, i will say it here. Happy fathers day dad, i love you anyway.
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Capricorn
time: December 22 to January 20
opposite sign: Cancer
colours: brown, black, gray
Symbol: Goat
Element: Earth
Good traits: practival,prudent, ambitious, disiplined, patient, carefree, humorous, reserved
bad traits: pessimistic, fatalistic, miserly, grudging
Likes: hot, simple food, antigues, history, duities, responsibilites, not being presured by others, having plenty of unconditional love, lots of personal privacy
Dislikes: disorder of all kinds, being teased, surprises, new ideas, loneliness, being made to feel useless or incompetent, being embarrassed in public
opposite sign: Cancer
colours: brown, black, gray
Symbol: Goat
Element: Earth
Good traits: practival,prudent, ambitious, disiplined, patient, carefree, humorous, reserved
bad traits: pessimistic, fatalistic, miserly, grudging
Likes: hot, simple food, antigues, history, duities, responsibilites, not being presured by others, having plenty of unconditional love, lots of personal privacy
Dislikes: disorder of all kinds, being teased, surprises, new ideas, loneliness, being made to feel useless or incompetent, being embarrassed in public
Friday, April 30, 2010
In memory of you
I was sad to see you go, but i knew it was needed. There was no life for you here, you could do anything except sit around. you were blind, diabetic, had only one leg, your foot only had a few toes left on it, and you were in a wheel chair. Doctors were angry at your decision, but they had no idea what you were put through. I respect your decision, and they should have to. Your life was over, i guess there just wasn't anything left here for you. I know your in a better place now. Well you damn well should be! because you deserved to be treated well, you were a wonderful person, so i hope you moved on to a life much greater then you had. I just want you to know that i loved you, and still do. You were an amazing person, and i couldn't have asked for a better uncle.
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